WIAW #10…I feel fall coming on!!

Well I just disappeared for a while…what happened?!?! Oh yeah, school. Awesome. I’m all sad I didn’t get much recipe-ing/blogging done this week, but I did get a few pics so I figured I could still join the party!!! And I have a long weekend coming up so you can bet your face I will get a new recipe or something up ASAP!!! Woooo!!!

Thank you lovely Jenn for hosting this lovely event!!

Now, I know that the theme is summer staples, and I know it’s August, but there has been a chill to the air the past few mornings (aka it finally got down below the nineties!) and Pinterest has been telling me it’s fall for quite some time now! So that may have inspired me for a few eats…(aka I ate a whole can of pumpkin by myself in like, 2 days. yum.)

Okay who am I kidding. I eat Kabocha all year long 🙂

See, I tried to make kale chips. I really wanted to make a recipe for you guys!! They tasted all right (good to me, not my mom haha), but more like kale crisps. And half of them burned. Meh.

Breakfast for dinner = win. Tofu and veggie scramble (with liberal ketchup) and two pumpkin muffins topped with vanilla almond butter/pumpkin pie ‘frosting’. They were supposed to be pancakes, but I added too much pumpkin and they wouldn’t cook, so they became microwave muffins. They were still delicious!

Theres the pumpkin!!! Pumpkin/apple pie oats topped with apple and cinnamon. lots of cinnamon. I love “this” season:)

Then I decided to join Pinterest (and department stores) in pretending it was December. So I had a ‘mint latte’ aka peppermint tea plus decaf instant coffee and almond milk. Ahhhhh….

And cherries (times 4893257834720). In case you forgot it was summer (hehe:) )

Before jumping into the bright orange and red hues of fall, I decided to have a rainbow veggie snack plate (notice the purple cauliflower. Yes, I bought it that way 😀 )

Boy I am really good at taking pictures of fruit and veggies huh? Well they are just so gosh darn photogenic I can’t help it!! (Plus, I would feel like a weirdo whipping out a camera for school lunches so I make up for that with pictures of snacks:) )

Part 1 of a recent dinner: asparagus, tempeh, onion and mushroom stir fry (this was pre-sauce and while part 2 was cooking haha) It was good. Tempeh has a different texture to it, its really different. Definetely should eat it more often:)

And now, for the main event! (and the farewell to summer staples).

What better way to “end” summer than with a Vegan Luau dinner?

My mom organized with the (vegan) chef of a restaurant nearby to have a Vegan Luau dine out. This chef (since last years Sacramento Vegan Chef Challenge, organized by my mom herself!) has created many vegan meals at his restaurant Capitol Garage. He consistently has todiefor truffles and desserts in the dessert case:

But this time we came for more than just desserts!

Here are the eats (minus the drinks:) )

The salad was amazing! The dressing was delicious (a little too spicy for this mild tastebud), and I loved the seaweed! Ha I ate my grandma’s seaweed too, guess she’s not a fan 🙂

The sandwich was good, but needed more filling!!! The sweet potatoes were delish though. Coconutty and amazing:)

Now here is when it was dark outside with horrible restaurant lighting. But the dessert? Try best thing I ate all week! It was described as a pineapple blondie with caramel sauce, but in reality it was a gigantic, cake-pancake-bread pudding-blondie delicious thing soaked in a caramel sauce and cinnamon and it was To. Die. For. It smelled like a delicious, drowned in maple syrup pancake and every bite was omgomgomgomgnomnomnom. Exactly.

All right summer, I love you, please don’t go! But I hope you don’t mind if sometimes fall tags along too, ’cause I like her. She’s nice. And she smells like cinnamon. 🙂

 

WIAW #9

 

Happy WIAW!!! I have a test (already) to study for, doggies to walk, and a bed to sleep in (on time) so I unfortunately don’t have much brain power to come up with a creative intro…..   But enough about my woes, Lets get to what you are really after!

First lets give it up to the lovely Jenn for hosting this weekly foodie fun!!

Thanks to school (ahem and forgetfulness/impatient hunger cues), I still am a slacker in the whole one, full, single day’s worth of eats thing. But I did still snap a few!!! In no particular order whatsoever….

 

Random ‘stir-fry’ with an assortment of veggies that needed to be used and tofu in bbq sauce and paprika, on top of spinach with a roasted sweet potato on the side. And yes, there is relish on top. Yes, I do create really weird concoctions for dinner when I am home alone. Don’t judge 😉

A few of these brownies were consumed

I made two mini pizzas to bring with me to a friend’s birthday party (I asked the hostess ahead of time and she said they would be having pizza so I brought my own, so I wouldn’t be without ‘real food’ (aka not just chips) and so I wouldn’t look like a weirdo with a veggie burger at a pizza party). I used tortillas with pasta sauce, a butternut ‘cheeze’ spread, and veggies.

Salad beast topped with salsa, honey mustard, and nooch. I’ve been really into the nooch lately, which is weird because I don’t use it that often. But I should, I like it:)

Kabocha!!!!! (this one was a little dry so I ate it with ketchup. Good. Idea.)

A is for Apple which I eat Almost every day 🙂

Look heres another one (told you!). This time topped with cinnamon and raw oats. It was like a cold apple pie, kinda…haha

The only picture of breakfast I’ve managed to take all week (GASP I KNOW!!!), but you can’t blame me for not wanting to take a picture at 5:45 am when its dark and I’m hungry. But I’ve been having some form of (DIY) Oats in a Jar* all week. This was cinnamon-chia-peach with almond butter.

*The DIY happens when you wash and save all  of your used jars, then spread nut butter inside for OIAJ. It’s not quite the same experience, but if I want OIAJ every day, well I’m gonna have them every day!!!

The only school lunch I got a picture of, too (hehe). It was a minimum day but my mom couldn’t pick me up right away, so I walked to the library and ate in the shade:) A yummy chickpea-veggie salad with dijon dressing, cherries and zucchini-banana-flax bread on the side.

Then when my mom picked me up (even later than expected) she brought vegan cupcakes. Her lateness was excused 😉   PB&J and Lemon Vanilla

French/Mexican quinoa salad (I roasted a bell pepper in the oven for this guys!!!! First time!)

I chopped up a personal watermelon, put some in a (giant) bowl with cucumbers, and put the rest away…

…aaannnnnddd then I went back for another giant bowl of watermelon. It’s my weakness.

I ate about 3/4 of the melon in one afternoon. I would have finished it off but I decided I might want a little tomorrow so I restrained myself. Fresh watermelon, I will miss you next season!!! #summerstaple

How was your day? This might seem like an odd question, but I don’t think it is genuinely asked or answered with a real sincerity anymore. I had a wonderful day filled with laughs, singing show tunes at the top of my lungs with my big brother who stopped by, and doing my favorite ever-dancing! I hope this next week is amazing and I hope you all have amazing days full of belly-laughs and butterflies!!

Marvelous in my Minimum (Mon)Day!

Wow, I feel like I’ve been quiet lately (blog wise that is).  Yayschool. (yes, that is a word.) Between school, homework, and trying to keep up around the house, well lets just say its kinda crazy. And its only week #1. Oh boy! Anyway, today was parent orientation night, which meant a Marvelous Minimum Day! (I love those things)

Thank you to the lovely Katie for hosting this wonderfulness!

While eating breakfast, I came across some marvelous news:

Our triple-digit streak is over!! Wooo!! Down to the nice, cool nineties now ;)Between this, the random tree losing it’s leaves in the park, and all of the currents interest trends, its beginning to look like fall (except its August…)

Marvelous are (most) of my classes! I love dancing again, and getting to be an example for the other students was awesome! And my favorite class (AP Enviro) is legit. We are learning about trophic levels etc. and watching a video called “Diet for a New America” which is all about how eating closer to the earth (aka not animals) is better for the environment. Its awesome because I already know all of the stuff in the video, but the fact that it’s in the curriculum for an AP class, and I know who all of the doctors in the video are, is simply marvelous. Plus I find it amusing that if you want to drink water in the classroom, it has to be from a BPA-free, reusable water bottle (it counts as participation points haha)

Plus I had a hilarious realization when taking notes for history

Granted, in context it was about how America had to figure out a way around Britain’s imposing taxes, but still…:)Now that my nerdiness is out of the way…When my mom picked me up from my super-short day at school, she brought cupcakes she bought from a cupcake bakery that offers delicious vegan cupcakes. bring it on.

We each had half of both. The one in front was Peanut Butter and Jelly (my fav, the pb frosting tasted like the inside of a reeses, or a butterfinger) and the one with the flower was vanilla with lemon frosting. I like cupcakes 😉

I also like this cute little bumper sticker:) except no car, so I’m keeping it like that for now hahaha. maybe on my computer…

Speaking of veggies, I got a giant, mutant bell pepper. Marvelous!

And to end the day, since the weather was finally somewhat not-hot at 7:30, I took a nice run. Its been a long time, and I don’t go that often, but I absolutely loved every second of it!

Wearing my favorite running shorts (so comfy! I think they might be pajama shorts b/c of the material but I run in them so they are running shorts!!). I busted out 6 miles in 50 minutes (very good for me:) , which I found to be a much easier feat bringing a water bottle along and smiling the whole way.

Of course, saying hello and waving to random people was a plus too. Especially when you get them to wave back and then hear them ask their friends “Do you know her??” hahahaha marvelous 🙂

10’o’clock Brownies

What happens when its 10’o’clock on a school night and your mom wants to make something for her staff development?
Usually, black bean brownies.
What happens when you find out you are out of bananas and dates, but you do have some leftover breakfast?
These brownies.
Rich, dense, chocolaty brownies with just the right amount of sweetness and notes of fruity tartness.
They were named 10’0’clock Brownies because of the late time they were created. But I’ll look the other way if you have them at 10 am too. (hey! they are made with leftover breakfast so essentially….:) )
10’0’Clock Brownies
  • 1 can black beans, drained and rinsed
  • 1 C. leftover vegan overnight oats (with chia seeds)
  • 2 T. almond butter
  • 1/4 C. coconut flour
  • 1/3 C. cocoa powder
  • 3 T. carob powder
  • 3 T. organic sugar
  • 3 T. organic brown sugar
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • 2 tsp instant espresso powder
  • 1 1/2 tsp baking powder
  • 1 tsp balsamic vinegar
  • chocolate chips

Lightly spray an 8×8 pan, and pre-heat oven to 350. In a food processor, put all ingredients (except for choc. chips) in and blend well. Once smooth, pulse in some chocolate chips (your preference), then spread batter into pan. Sprinkle with a few more chocolate chips, then bake for 20-30 minutes.

These are delicious cold, but I prefer them a little warmed up. They are amazing either way though!

You no longer have an excuse not to make brownies just because its 10 pm and you are out of your usual ingredients. Its called creativity.

Muah-ha-ha!!!

 

WIAW #8- Fruits, Veggies, and Cake.

Another week, another Wednesday. Another Summer, another school year. Oh time, how you fly!

Thank you to the wonderful, super awesome Jenn for hosting this awesomeness every week!!

Yes, you read that title right. All I seem to have gotten pictures of this week were of fruits, veggies, and dessert. Lots of salads (Uhm, its 107 degrees on the daily lately. I’m not cooking.), smoothies, and a nice array of ice cream and cake. That is how you do it my friends. Lets get to it!

In no particular order…(mainly because I don’t feel like grouping them)

Breakfast: Overnight Oat Groats (not doing that again, hard to chew) in a parfait with soy yogurt and a farmers market peach

First Day Of School breakfast: Strawberry Kiwi breakfast smoothie (strawberries, kiwi, soy yogurt, spinach, lime and ginger plus stevia to taste and xanthan gum to make it thick like pudding:) ) plus some leftover brown rice heated up with vanilla almond butter (ahem, crack. Eat.It.All.The.Time) and almond milk. I might have been up until 1 in the morning finishing an essay and reading for school that I had all summer to do. I needed a good, energizing, back-in-balance breakfast.

The next day I recreated the smoothie, adding oats and a little parsley and with almond milk instead of yogurt, then topped it with granola and vanilla almond butter. Its kinda sorta amazing and I kinda sorta bought more strawberries so I can have it again tomorrow. (Delicious food rut. delicious i say)

Speaking of smoothies…Relaxing with a magazine (I don’t care if its garbage, it wasn’t homework and that was the point at the time!!) and a greeeeeennn smoothie.

Lunch: salad (plethora of veggies and other goodies but I shook it up and they sank to the bottom) with a side of last minute, end of summer notes. Its ironic that I’ve done less homework in the first two days of school than I did in the last week of summer vacation. Oh life…

Late night dinner salad: Frozen veggies and tomatoes with tempeh. “It was a Cut it up, microwave it, throw it on a salad kinda night.”

Taco Salad at Dos Coyotes: Corn tortillas, creamy anasazi beans, and all good veggies with fruit salsa. Freshly grilled corn on the cobb on the side. I love Dos, they get all of their produce delivered from local, organic farms every single morning and are very accommodating to our needs!

Guess who finally remembered to take a photo of the best stuff on earth? (Kabocha Squash of course!)

This Girl!!!

Butternut squash ravioli pasta salad with an avocado/cannelini bean based basil pesto. This was a dinner, but I also brought leftovers for a school lunch the next day.

Look at this baby avocado!!!! awww its so cute!

I think I was craving a large bowl of grapes and blueberries…haha satisfied that one!

Of course, after all that sweet and juicy I wanted something crunchy and salty. Cheerios and garlic World Peas (roasted peas, actually really yum!)

And of course, with it being so hot and all, and this being so refreshing and all, a big glass of iced ginger-limeade! (lime juice, ginger juice, water and stevia). This times 10943129432 this week…Uhm, I like limeade 😉

Okay okay, now for the good stuff!!

Frozen Banana “cake-batter milkshake”

A chocolate birthday cake I made for the birthday of a family friend ( I’m so proud of my decoration!!)

I used a gluten-free chocolate cake mix and made Jenn’s chocolate brownie bread (sans walnuts), then made a chocolate frosting/ganache concoction on top. It was delicious!! Served with a little of each of my chocolate marshmallow and toasty marshmallow sweet dream ice cream. One of the guests said  that it was better than regular ice cream (I squealed so high it must have broken someone’s eardrum. I also happy-danced. In my chair. Okay not in my chair) and was more like gelato!!!! Aaaahhhh!!!!!

Of course, I had leftovers the next day after school as a reward for successfully finishing my first day.

And of course, we can’t forget the amazing S’mores Sundae I posted about earlier! (this is where the chocolate marshmallow and toasty marshmallow ice cream recipes are!). I shared this with my mom (for the picture I had to make it a little bit too ginormous for one person to eat by themselves…well I guess its possible, just not right after lunch 😉 ).

I entered it in Sweetly Raw’s Vegan Ice Cream Sundae Challenge! Make sure you check out the rest of the entries, they all look amazing!! (also, there is a voters choice contest she will be opening up too, so if you are feeling up to it, vote for your favorite!!)

Yeah, thats not all I ate this week, Just what I took pictures of it. What can I say? I like to photograph pretty food and whats prettier than veggies and dessert??? Hahaha not together though! (well, actually….)

Happy WIAW!!!

MIMM #1

So I decided to join the Marvelous in my Monday party! And what better Monday to start than the first Monday of the school year??

(ps Thank you to Katie from Healthy Diva Eats for hosting this party every week! Ive been noticing it pop up on more and more blogs and I loved the idea of finding something marvelous in a monday!!)

Yep, thats right. The first day of school (dun dun dun dunnnnnn).Or, a more marvelous way to look at it, my first day as an upperclassman, and the beginning of my last two years of public school!!!!(note that is a marvelously glitter-ified class shirt that says ‘junior’. or, if you look at me head on, ‘unio’.) I was so excited to see all of my friends again! And also to show off my brand new (as in, hair salon on Saturday) red red hair!!!notice any resemblance maybe?

also painting my nails with a purple (our junior class color) manicure!

I got a good laugh during first period:

Yes. Welcome to first period, its 7:45 am and you are in math class, AP calculus. Heres a squiggly graph, have fun.

But even more marvelous than that was the feeling I got 2nd period: dance! I had to give up outside dance (which I have done since I was 5) because of homework and stuff, but this year I decided to take it in school so I don’t have to worry about scheduling! And let me tell you, after a year of missing it so bad, an across the floor turn has never felt so good!

it was so hot today!!! 106. So when the sprinkles went off in the late afternoon (at home)  I took off my shoes and walked around in the cold dewey grass to cool off. Grounding is amazing.

But one of the funniest parts of my day? Learning that my dogs like to eat corn…

Actually, the little one even has the technique down!! Its hilarious!

And now its time for a marvelous nights sleep so I have a marvelous day tomorrow!

(I like that word quite a bit. Marvelous…Marvelous. Yes.)

(un)healthy thoughts at any size.

There is something that has been bothering me lately. I haven’t thought about it for a long time, so of course my brain would start getting all philosophic and deep (and slightly confusing) when I am trying to finish 42 pages of AP notes in 3 days because I procrastinated all summer. No kidding, last night I sent my friend a 4 page long text ranting about “how sexist it was of our founding fathers to create a country led by a (ahem MALE) president, because it meant Walt Disney had no material to work with to give America a Disney Princess. Therefore we have American Girl. Is there an american girl land though? Nope. Disneyland, filled with castles. Of lies” See, that didn’t even make sense. I need sleep…anyway onto my most recent deep thoughts… 

this post does go into a slight bit of numbers, habits, etc. so if you are sensitive to that please disregard. Go to my last post about an ice cream sundae contest!

You don’t have to be underweight to have an eating disorder.

In my case, I was caught ‘early’ enough for it not to have gone that far.

Does the fact that my BMI never fell below the ‘healthy’ range make the thoughts I had (and occasionally still have) any less disordered? No. My lowest mentally was not my lowest physically. I was tired, constantly cold (in the summer), I sometimes had heart pains. I was confronted about what I was doing, I saw counselors, I ate more and some of those problems went away. The thoughts were less rampant but still there and I still lost weight. At my lowest weight I was omitted to an outpatient (not inpatient) program. Does the fact that I wasn’t in full day treatment mean my thoughts were any quieter? No, it just hadn’t gone far enough for that to be completely necessary. I was asked by the intake specialist if I really thought I had an eating disorder. Yes, I said, I think I do. No, I know I do. I had read online the ‘symptoms’ and I identified with most of them. No, I’m not drastically underweight. But if I don’t get help, I might get there. Just the same, gaining weight doesn’t make the thoughts go away.

When I finally told my friends (just a few) that the reason I was always busy after school was because I was in an outpatient program being treated for anorexia, they didn’t believe me. “But you eat(do you actually see what I eat? an apple and a slice of bread?) “But you look healthy.” (read: But you aren’t emaciated enough to be anorexic. You don’t fall into society’s standards for an eating disorder). So thats what its come to. Not only are there unrealistic standards for what women and girls should look like, but there are standards for an eating disorder. If you aren’t noticeably underweight, If you actually eat (however little), if you don’t “act” anorexic, then apparently to the rest of the oblivious world, you aren’t.

But to be truthful, there aren’t any ‘rules’ of what is considered an eating disorder. Imagine two people, if you will, A and B. A was originally at a healthy weight, but developed an eating disorder, lost 20 pounds, and is now underweight. CALL THE AUTHORITIES she now has a flashing sign over her head that says ED. On the other hand, B was originally considered overweight, then developed an eating disorder, lost 50 pounds (unhealthily) and is told by friends how great she looks, how healthy she must be, how jealous they are. Fuel to the fire my friends. She may have even had the ED longer than A, but nobody would believe that upon looking at her simply because she is not underweight.

Truth be known, an eating disorder is not a competition. At least, not one that I want any part of. Going into it, however, I never believed that I really had one. I didn’t think I was “worthy” of that label. I wasn’t thin enough to be anorexic. I was thin, but not “thin enough”. I also don’t think I was solely anorexic. In the beginning, I had a mild case of Binge ED (when I began to rapidly gain weight with mindless, sometimes emotional, definitely uncontrollable eating. If you put a plate of cookies in front of me, I couldn’t stop. All I could think about were those cookies). With initial weight loss came a diagnoses of ‘pre-anorexia’, which later turned into a diagnoses of anorexia, which I believe was (is) really a blend of that plus orthorexic tendencies, exercise bulimia, and EDNOS. Yet the whole time I was considered to be in a ‘healthy weight range’. At 5’1”, my highest was 130, my lowest (at a doctors, not at home in the morning) was 100. Yes, this was a large weight loss, over the course of a year and a half. But it was always a “healthy” weight range. And yet, over the course of the two years I have had an eating disorder, between gains and losses, gaining back and losing again, my weigh has fluctuated a total of over 64 pounds. That is not healthy.

Its not about the weight you are. If it was, I wouldn’t have struggled, and I wouldn’t still struggle. Its about the ugly thoughts in your head. The disordered thinking. Please, if you are struggling with unhealthy thoughts, don’t disregard them simply because you or others can’t ‘see’ the eating disorder. I think (and this is not meant in any offensive way whatsoever, please don’t take it as such) that an eating disorder is like a cancer. You can’t see it until after its already taken hold, caused damage that is so deeply rooted that overcoming it is no easy task.

Thoughts are still thoughts. Struggles are still struggles, and disordered thinking is still vicious and harming at any weight.

You are not alone. You are never alone.